I Lie You

Ongoing

16 Chapters61,732 words255 min read

4.9 (16)4.9 out of 5 stars from 16 ratings

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Twenty-three years of Decembers in Bangkok taught a silver dealer every rule of the soi. He wrote some of them. Then he broke the only one that mattered.

Chapters

Cue Music

5,562 words23 min read5.05.0 out of 5 stars from 4 ratings

Four in the morning at Suvarnabhumi, twenty-three years of Decembers deep. On his phone, a scar through a left eyebrow and a message sent in August, never answered.

A Star Is Born

5,323 words22 min read

A birthday at Lucky Boys, six pairs of hands on him, and the one boy in the room he has decided not to look at. Gop comes over anyway.

The Body Beautiful

3,535 words15 min read4.54.5 out of 5 stars from 4 ratings

Gop moves up to Hot Male, where muscle is the product and biceps are a career plan. In a hotel bathroom the man paying the gym fees kneels with a razor and takes instruction.

Dark Side of the Gop

3,979 words16 min read

A condo that smells like nothing, a hundred and six days to fill. In Phuket the peacock folds his tail, and a bought man's one instrument is refusing to look.

Enter The Bastard

3,488 words14 min read

No Gop. The I-15 at ninety at one in the morning, and the oldest friend alive in the passenger seat asking the question the blog has no answer for.

The Babylon Detour

4,252 words18 min read

He picked Tuesday because Tuesday is the night nobody finds you. Two hundred and thirty baht, two brown towels, and a steam room dark enough to erase a face.

Money in the Bank

4,875 words20 min read

Twelve thousand dollars a year, itemized at four in the morning: off fees, joiner fees, the tip folded under the water glass. Then Gop counts every borrowed baht back into his palm and bows.

Rules to Live By

3,536 words15 min read

Five rules kept a man safe in the bars for twenty-six years. Don't fall in love. Never get jealous. In a Sukhumvit hotel room, Gop's phone lights three times while the shower runs.

Just the Three of Us

3,851 words16 min read

Dave lands in Bangkok and meets Gop in a hotel lobby. Two beds were booked so the hierarchy would declare itself, and at three in the morning Gop decides it in four words.

#10

And Now a Word About Americans

1,719 words7 min read

Thanksgiving in Culver City. Dry turkey, twelve at the table, and nobody who knows there were two beds in that Bangkok room. It is five in the afternoon there.

#11

Family Matters

4,627 words19 min read

Eleven hours north to Isaan on a ticket he did not buy. Red earth, a green concrete house his wire transfers helped build, and a mother waiting up in the dark.

#12

The Walls That Divide UsBack the work →

3,064 words13 min read

Valentine's Day at a hotel with a glass bathroom wall. The man who undresses for a living every night stops in the doorway and will not go in.

#13

Affairs of the HeartBack the work →

3,965 words16 min read

Chest pain at three in the morning in Culver City, and the man he calls is not the emergency operator. Eight thousand miles away a bar boy hears about it secondhand, and extracts a promise.

#14

Attitude AdjustmentBack the work →

4,239 words17 min read

Martial law on Tuesday, the bars dark by Thursday, and a ten o'clock curfew that shrinks the whole arrangement to one air-conditioned room. With the ecosystem switched off, the man who performs for a living has nothing left to perform.

#15

Eyes Wide ShutBack the work →

2,685 words11 min read

The boyfriend flies in on the ninth day of the curfew and meets the bar boy on neutral ground, ten meters under Silom Road. Fourteen words pass between them, across him, about him, and neither one looks at him while it is said.

#16

Tales of the Big MangoBack the work →

3,032 words13 min read

The last morning is always the same and never the same: the gap in the blackout curtain, the AC nobody has thought to turn off, two thousand baht folded under the water glass. This time he counted it out the night before, which makes it a decision.